Thursday, December 26, 2013

Rowgirl goes running again #DFMC25 #Boston2014

It seems that I've been getting steady traffic to this blog recently, so I'm going to post my #DFMC25 email draft so you can say "I saw it first…" And thanks for any support you can give. 

I hope this finds you and your family doing well. As you may know already, I am a member of the 25th Dana Farber Marathon Challenge Team (#DFMC25), a team of over 700 runners raising money to benefit the Claudia Adams Barr Program in Innovative Basic Cancer Research, which is located at the Dana Farber Cancer Institute (DFCI) in Boston, MA. Our team goal this year is to raise $5.3 million dollars for the Barr Program and personally, I hope to raise $10,000 while training to run my 2nd marathon on April 21, 2014 at the 2014 Boston Marathon.

In 2001, I was introduced to the DFMC while rowing at Riverside Boat Club in Cambridge, MA by a rowing friend who arranged to have a group of us rowers row a marathon on the Charles River and raise funds for the DFMC. I rowed all 26.2 miles alone in my single and ended up with one sore butt, but also knew that 100% of the dollars I raised were going to give cancer a kick in the butt too by supporting new and innovative cancer research by gifted and determined scientists at DFCI.

For me, the fight against cancer has always been connected to basic, preclinical research. When my younger brother Brian was diagnosed with osteosarcoma in 1993 and receiving treatment in Boston in 94 and 95, I was a student and undergrad/graduate researcher in labs at UNH and Tufts. Now I support the efforts of those researchers to get basic fundamental discoveries through the 10-15 yr clinical translational process from lab bench to bedside. In 1995 I lost Brian - my quiet, funny, incredibly talented and wonderful brother, just shy of his 18th birthday. Eighteen years later, I still miss him terribly, but am constantly reminded of his joy in what was important: his family and friends, his home town, sports, being outdoors, and keeping a sense of humor, even through tough times. And it was this joy and love that I took to the 2009 Boston Marathon where I ran my first marathon and raised over $10,000 for the DFMC.

This time though, I’m also running for Julie.

When I was 5 months pregnant with our daughter Brynna, our Cilley Hill neighbor introduced me to Julie Kelliher, 6 months pregnant with her daughter, Riley. We connected immediately and as we relayed our stories over the next 4 months, hiking to the outlook behind her house and walking the woods of Underhill, we realized our lives had crossed many, many times prior in NH, at UNH, in Boston, but it took VT and our girls to actually bring us together. Over the next 5 years, Julie was my sounding board on all things – work, parenting, living in VT and often those conversations went on over the dirt roads of Underhill as we ran together. In late 2012, Julie received an initial diagnosis of MS that seemed to explain her increasing fatigue, nausea, and dizziness, but initial treatments didn’t make a dent. In fact, she was getting worse, and a CT scan in January 2013 showed the real culprit, a glioblastoma multiforma (GBM) brain tumor that was inoperable. We lost Julie February 10, 2013 and VT, the world, lost a smart, generous, beautiful soul.

I was achingly sad.

I was incredibly angry.

So I started to run again.

Julie and Brian are just two of the many incredible individuals I have known and know who live or lived with cancer. I know you also have your family, friends, and colleagues living or you have fought a form of this disease yourself. Too many of us find ourselves, our loved ones, confronted with a cancer diagnosis, and while years of study have brought amazing therapies to many types of cancers, there are still more that need their cure brought to light by new research and new therapies. This is what the DFMC team runs for and is why I am again taking on the challenge.

Although there are many incredible efforts out there to support the fight against cancer, the DFMC and the Barr Program are one of a few that support efforts at the basic and very fundamental levels of research. In addition, 100% of any donation you make goes directly to those research efforts, since the Barr Program is fully supported administratively. This means when you give to the DFMC team you are directly funding experiments that could be the foundation of the next chemotherapy, the next diagnostic, and the next therapeutic treatments that we aren’t even aware of yet.

I hope you will join me in supporting innovative research and new understanding of all types of cancer. You can make a donation either at my DFMC webpage or through the mail. Checks should be made out to "Dana-Farber Marathon Challenge" and sent to me at 35 Crombie St, Burlington, VT 05401.

Thank you so much for any amount you can give and for supporting my run and the DFMC team.  In addition, when you make a donation, I will attach a ribbon to my singlet in honor of an individual of your choosing. Their strength and courage will help carry me through the race.


Finally, you can keep track of my training progress on Twitter @rowgirl2012, on Google.com/KerryElizabethSwift and on my blog at http://rowgirlgoesrunning.blogspot.com. I’ll be in touch at least once more before heading to Boston and will make sure you all get a race report after the race. And if you are near the course on the 21st, please come down and cheer the DFMC team on – I’d love to see and hear you!

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

A Race Schedule

After 7 months of working and not working at repairing an old rowing injury that came back to haunt me last August, I'm finally running pretty pain free again. OK, let me amend that: I'm run/walking pretty pain free, but the running is getting longer, the walking getting shorter, and I'm getting faster....relatively. ;-)

So, it's time to plan the race schedule and I think I've got it set through October.

6/9 Champ Run - Charlotte 10K 
http://www.racevermont.com/champ-run/
6/29 Huntington Race for Sundaes 10K
http://huntingtonrace4sundaes.weebly.com/
7/7 Mad Half  13M
http://www.madmarathon.com/HMRegistration.html
8/10 Irasberg Half 13M
http://www.kingdomrun.org/
9/21 Common to Common 30K 18M
http://www.gmaa.net/schedule.php?raceid=CC2013 18M
10/13 GMAA Half 13M
http://www.gmaa.net/schedule.php?raceid=GMM2013 13M

The July half might be pushing it, but the Mad River Valley is just gorgeous and I've got the 8/10 NEK race to go for if it really doesn't look like the miles are getting up there by June. This is also a test of my head for long miles again - it's been really hard to push past the 6 mile marker on my own, but I'm going to have to. Or at least run with her in my head and my heart. Maybe even fly for a few moments with the sound of her laugh next to me and her smile shining through my tears.

Miss you so much.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Dancing with Cancer

Sitting on the sidelines of cancer, it's so easy to dive into the fight, delve into the science,  figure out the options, but sometimes you just have to step back and look at it as just another path to the end we all face. Even if it's sometimes way, way too early for the rest of us. And just sit with it. Or dance with it as Ezra of Teaching Cancer to Cry says below.

I like that picture. Taking the last few months to dance with cancer and with all the people that make your life so special. To be blessed for a few last months. To be loved. To be strong. To be.

That doesn't mean I can't cry about it tho'. I do. A lot.  Or keep on searching and supporting those looking to make this a bit less of a horrible disease. I do and I will.

For those of you who would like to meet Ezra and his beautiful writing (and bikes!) take a look here:
http://www.teachingcancertocry.com/

Until then a quote from his post of 12/8/12. http://www.teachingcancertocry.com/?m=201212

For quite a while I’ve had something that I’ve wanted to say, or talk about somehow.  I have touched on it in the past but never really taken it head on.
You would all do me an amazing service if you would entertain the notion that the fight metaphor may not be the most helpful one.  Or maybe it’s not as helpful now as it was in earlier stages.  It’s difficult to change the language around something when it is so engrained.  “Fighting cancer..” “died after a long battle with cancer..”  etc.  But this implies that there are winners and losers.  That if we die we have lost.  But we ALL die.  No one makes it out alive.  That shouldn’t make us all losers.  The most pernicious part of the fight metaphor for me is the notion that if someone dies young from cancer they simply didn’t fight hard enough.  That if someone decides to forgo treatment, they have “thrown in the towel.”
I don’t see any grace in the desperate clinging to life that we call fighting in this metaphor.
Maybe instead I’m having a slow dance with a handsome and charming mad man who has made it quite clear that eventually he’ll have to USE the straight razor that he’s holding to my throat.  I believe him.  He doesn’t seem like a guy who lies.  Why he has to cut my throat isn’t clear.  In the mean time, it’s a warm embrace.  I’m holding him, he’s holding me.  He’s whispering the most beautiful and insane shit to me, all wise, all true.  I’m trying to enjoy the dance as much as I can, trying to learn as much as I can, trying to stay present despite the knife at my throat.   And now he’s starting to cry.  You dig?
Don’t get me wrong.  I’m a fighter all right.  I have been from the start.  Walking around barefoot with fists cocked.  But this isn’t a fight.